This solar energetic influence, rippling new moon in the grounded Taurus, and other cosmic planning is really shaking me up, over here. I don’t feel like myself and I am also processing how to navigate not feeling like myself. It is not a bad thing, it is a better thing.

I went through a pretty long sickness which was obviously a spiritual cleansing (my son went through the same right before me, since he is a more advanced soul than I am). I am feeling creatively inspired but simultaneously fatigued. I am riddled with heart-racing anxiety but no source for the cause, while feeling calm and centered at the same time. There is not a lot of logic with what is happening, spiritually, with me right now but I suppose that also, ironically, all makes sense. It’s merely a step along this Ascension process that the entire planet earth is navigating at the moment.

Despite the confusion and chaos, a few things have been made abundantly clear to me:

• I must prioritize my own growth and healing and focus on my spiritual and mental growth through mindful focus on activities that contribute to this.
  
• I need to continue to disconnect from social media as it merely caters to the “game” that darkness and low energies are playing with this planet, and ultimately does not serve me as much as I very clearly serve it.
  
• I must dedicate time to growing my spiritual business in a way that serves me energetically while also leading to necessary abundance for earthly-living.
  
• I must continue to dedicate hours in my day to developing my newest projects, a Spirit Baby Handbook for simplified understanding of and communication with spirit babies, and furthering my poetry writing into an eventual expanded edition of my book, The Cosmic Whispered Verses of Awakened Motherhood. Moreover, I have product plans in mind but they are merely an expression of my creative self and not a priority as they do not truly contribute to Collective betterment. They are just joyful – and joy is important!
  
• Continue to speak my truth, set boundaries, and clear my throat chakra, continue to release karmic ties that no longer serve me, and continue to focus on the family unit that matters: mine. I will edit out all from my life that is non-essential
  
• I must no longer consume what does not uplift me or bring me passion and joy. It has become a hyper-sensitivity for me.

I recently read this on SoulandSelf.com, “…social media is hooking so many of us into an energetic ecosystem where we are connected (and then inadvertently addicted) to multiple energies basically 24/7 – leaving little time to feel into and trust our natural selves, value and path.”

I am trying to understand how I, as a spiritually creative healer, can navigate trying to get my services and creations into more hands while simultaneously not allowing social media to play a part in my marketing game. There are websites dedicated to understanding selling without social media, but I also struggle to sell; because I do trust and believe people will find me when they need me (though I also know that isn’t the optimal way to help financial abundance). I am rereading a book on Financial Success from a Spiritual Perspective to help with this. I simply cannot pour energy into an avenue where I know it is depleting me.

Slow Living had become an all-encompassing aspect of my life again, and even if slow mornings are 20% interrupted by the needs of my child, putting aside my phone and distractions have helped me not take a moment for granted. I don’t get frustrated when my mornings are interrupted because I have made it a priority to also dedicate my evenings to being slow. I cater to my needs after my son has gone to sleep before catering to the needs of the house(hold).

Writing and journaling has moved front-and-center for personal and spiritual betterment, as well as the Divine Feminine urge to creatively express oneself. I am happy when I am journaling, and when I am not journaling, I am thinking about journaling or watching journaling videos. There is really powerful expression and growth that happens in the pages of a physical book and I love and value what they may mean to my child(ren) when they are older and flip through them.

I am slowly easing out of my reading slump, and non-fiction is (once again) at the forefront. I am not quite in the spiritual domain, though I’m toeing it. I’ve been immersed in Voltaire, Thoreau, and more philosophical works. Physical books are it for me right now, while my Kindle is gathering some dust (I don’t want my son to think I’m looking at my phone) and I’ve begun to commit the ultimate sin (which I have never done in 36 years of life): I’m highlighting and slightly annotating my books. Only my used ones, of course!

Now, lunch is finished and I’m at that weird nap precipice where I fear starting something new and baby waking and interrupting it, while also not wanting to waste what little time I do have before he wakes.

What next, I wonder?
How are you prioritizing your spiritual growth and connection with what really matters during this profound (celestial) time?

xx C