While driving home, we had a magical encounter with deer, signaling the arrival of spring. This reawakened my love for nature and gratitude for sharing the earth with such beautiful creatures. The experience inspired a new children’s book about energy, but I’m torn between traditional publishing and self-publishing. I hope the right opportunity manifests soon.

Yesterday, while we were driving home from our afternoon out, winding through the backroads and around farmland, we saw two beautiful deer grazing. The warmer weather has brought them out of hiding early, and this was the third deer spotting in the year, already. We are only in February; to have such gifts from nature emerge without a doubt that the tides are changing and Spring is on the horizon is so uplifting. If the deer are ready for Spring, I am certainly ready for Spring.

Already, their presence was a joy in and of itself. White tales shaking as they grazed on the sprouts emerging on the untamed farmland, farmers not quite ready the way they were, untended stalks with fears of another frost waiting around the corner. “I wish I had binoculars!” I shouted across the car to my husband. (They arrive today, by the way.) On we drove, my heart leaping with the joy of those precious little faces, those soft bodies representing AWAKENING.

And then, as if the Universe couldn’t be even more generous, “STOP, STOP, STOP!” I screamed to my husband because there, on the passenger’s side, on yet another piece of farmer’s land where broken corn stalks laid bent from last year’s harvest, five deer were leaping, leaping, leaping and crossing the road in front of our car with such haste and excitement. I have never experienced deer running past my car. I have never seen deer running in the wild, and I come from the land of deer (Canada). “OH MY GOODNESS, THAT WAS AMAZING!” my voice, like child’s, while R sat in the backseat saying, “DEER. DEER. DEER.” His new favourite word, no doubt, when previously it was “Nail!” (Snail); my little wildling and animal-conscious soul.

That feeling of complete and utter joy sat with me for the rest of the day. That moment filled my spirit and launched me forward. That was a true reawakening of the love I do have for nature and my gratitude that I get to share this planet with beautiful creatures like the deer. It is no coincidence that deer represent maintaining child-like innocence and wonder in your life. That is exactly how I felt when they graced me with their presence.

From Fauna, the spiritual meaning of deer is as such: “The deer embodies fertility, gentleness and wisdom, independence and creativity. It is also a symbol of regeneration and renewal.” But this was a most transformative moment for me when I took time to reflect on the image and tune into my memories along my spiritual journey – and I came upon something even more incredible. Something that, when writing about it now, really shakes me to my core.

Many, many, many moons ago, during my first re-Awakening to my spiritual path in 2015, I had a dream about deer. They presented themselves to me in the middle of a field, encircled by trees. They told me they were my spirit animal guides. The images from this dream are still burned into my brain, I have not forgotten exactly what this field looked like and exactly what the trees surrounding the field were like, either – despite EMDR therapy erasing so much from my brain. And, you may not believe it, but it looked like the field and the forest where I saw these deer, yesterday. It looked exactly like it. It gives me goosebumps to write it.

The spiritual impact of this moment genuinely rippled into my entire day, but even more so in the evening. As I held my son’s hand while he fell asleep, focusing in on that powerful energy in his palm, I was gifted a book. Yep, gifted an entire book. It was written for me as I laid there, meditating on that energy pulse of my son. The entire book, told to me as I laid there. I held onto it in my heart with as much strength as I could, and when I was sure he was asleep, rushed out and sat at my laptop.

I poured out the words that were gifted to me in one sitting. I didn’t even think twice, I just heard them and I wrote them. Inspired by my son. The gift of the deer. The gift from the Universe. This is how I always am gifted my Projects from Source; it comes in a single wave and I am so taken over by it that I am drawn to pour all my soul out into it, as quick as possible. This is why I am having such difficulty with the Sacred Motherhood book I am writing – the entire layout was gifted by Source (all chapters) but it takes a lot of energetic input and it’s a slow one to birth. But not this project given to me, yesterday. This poured out of me like no dam could hold it.

It’s a children’s picture book, and now I’m not sure where to go with it. It’s a book for children ages 3-10 (ish) about energy. There are too few spiritual, non-denominational children’s books out in the world. I have the manuscript, but I am certainly no illustrator. I have been doing a little research and apparently, as a children’s book author, you don’t need to present your book with illustrations to publishers as they usually choose their own. But, do I want to go the traditional route? Do I want to face the heartache and rejection of publishers? Do I have the time to search for children’s publishing agencies and pitch myself – something I am so terrible at doing?

But, I struggle with taking the self-published route, as well. Hiring an illustrator is an investment in my project and I’m terribly poor at self-promotion. I would certainly not reach the threshold that would make the investment worth it – I haven’t been able to do that with my Hybrid Publishing release of The Transformational Path. That being said, I’ve found some small freelance illustrators who truly embody my vibe.

As always, wealth is not the purpose of my projects, though everyone deserves abundance for the strength to share their spiritual creativity. So, finding a publisher seems the best route for distribution but certainly the hardest for myself (hours of research, selling myself via submissions, and the like).

Maybe, with a little luck, a children’s publisher – or someone who knows one – will stumble upon this blog post and believe that my little project deserves a spark to help bring it completely to life. I’m writing it, so I am manifesting it. This is me affirming it to Source. Someone will stumble upon this blog. Someone will help see this project come to life.

I love my healing work through my Spirit Baby Readings and my Past Lives Readings, as well as my lightcode work and motherhood mediumship services, but I am an author/writer first and foremost and I know my purpose on this earth is writing. Like the Black Madonna said to me, “You will write and change lives. Your purpose is to write for me. Be my mouth. When you write they who read will listen.” I feel like this could be the first of many. I feel like this could be important.

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Not much else to share, this morning. My husband is doing video meetings so it’s hard to concentrate with a person talking in the background. I hope you are having a marvelous Monday, awakened mama.

P.S. I am hosting a giveaway on Instagram. You have the chance to win two ebooks; one being my book, The Transformational Path: How Healing, Unlearning, and Tuning into Source Helped Me Manifest My Most Abundant Life, and another from your ebook wishlist on Amazon. If you leave a comment on my blog, you get ten extra entries into the giveaway! Gift giving is my love language.

xx C

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