A new day.
A new mug.
A new energetic feeling encompassing the moment.
A new Alignment in my soul.
A new blog post being written.
A new chapter to more moments on this timeline called life.
Every single day is like the rebirth of chance. When a day is particularly challenging, exhausting, difficult, sad, let’s not forget that the slate becomes new when our eyes open the next morning.
This day feels new. This day feels different. What about for you?

Sad news regarding the course I signed up for called Growing Your Business Without Social Media – it’s all audio. Every module has an audio piece of 15 or more minutes. Now, despite being clairaudient, I am not an auditory learning. The irony of Source: Here’s your weakest skill, we will make it your greatest gift — hahaha! Maybe it’s meant to humble you, maybe it’s meant to recognize strength where you believe you have none, maybe it’s just meant to make your soul work a little harder, but who knows. But let this be a lesson to you, reader, to pay attention to where you think you are weakest because it might just be how the Universe is trying to communicate with you.

Anyway, back to not being an auditory learner (clearly I learn best via reading language). I can’t watch movies or television shows without subtitles. I can’t process audiobooks. I don’t listen to podcasts. I can’t just listen to a YouTube video, I need to watch and read it. I never attended university classes because I was unable to focus on the oral lectures. Thankfully, I contacted Belinda the owner of Soul&Self and explained my predicament. She was exceptionally understanding and offered me a complete refund while also letting me know that she will be releasing an ebook soon that may be more beneficial to me. What an angel.

But, this comes with immense disappointment. I was looking forward to this course and I was looking forward to applying the learning in a way that would benefit this space and lead people organically to this blog and website. Thankfully there is another intuitive business leader for soulful entrepreneurs that I have followed for years, now, called George Kao, and I have his most recent ebook sitting on my Kindle. He is a well of wisdom and along with Belinda’s blog posts, I will digest what I can to make an impact where I can.

Yesterday, I posted a Reel on Instagram promoting/advertising my new service, the Awakened Mama Life Offering, and, quite honestly, it made me very uncomfortable to make the Reel and to post it. I hesitate until right before bedtime where I knew I would put away my phone for the night and wouldn’t be able to delete it. More and more I am finding it difficult to advertise what I do; selling doesn’t feel right to me. It’s why I’ve always relied on testimonials and word-of-mouth as a way for my work to spread to others, and it’s why I haven’t even invested in advertising the same of my books or journals like most authors are told to do.

My spiritual advisor says people will find me when they need me – and I found her when I needed her, and she doesn’t use any advertising but is booked for an entire year. I trust the Universe, which is perhaps why it was so difficult me to “sell myself” yesterday. My clients are not a part of a marketing funnel – I don’t even use marketing funnels. My clients are on the same path to healing as I am; we are walking to the same Eden, I need them as much as they need me and we are all sisters on this ride called life.

As I wrote that, I decided to draw a card from the Archangel Gabriel Oracle Deck and I got: Perfectionism – Polishing your creative project is fine, but don’t allow perfectionistic fear to result in procrastination. Your spiritual mind is one with the mind of the infinitely creative Creator. Therefore, your inspired creativity is Divinely perfect, in spiritual truth. […] there comes a time when you must release your creation out into the world for others to enjoy. Any fears you have about perceived imperfections will only attract critics as a self-fulfilling prophecy.

As usual, there are no coincidences in life – only synchronicities. This aligns, and I hear you.

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The energy of the day has truly shifted. And it’s not as if the conditions of this day have changed much more than yesterday, beyond sunnier skies. While we did delay R’s feeding time to 18h and that shifted his morning bodily wake to an hour later, I ended up going an hour later than normal because R also shifted his bedtime to 19h30 (and I wanted a little extra time to myself). I didn’t get any more sleep, but it feels as though I did – or, at least I feel invigorated and more inspired and motivated than I did, yesterday. The fog has certainly lifted.

The chickens of House 105 are out today. There are two. I haven’t named them yet because I only see them with blurry eyes and I feel like I need ti know them to meet them. There’s no logic to when they come out from their coop. This morning is not much different from the mornings we have been having for two, three weeks, now. But there they were, leaping around, enjoying their little life in their large space. I hope they are kept for eggs and not for meat. I wish that for them.

Sometimes I wonder about how I will manage once my husband returns to working in the office. When he’s working from home, I have this time to stare, daydream, take long showers, write in silence, dedicate time to my spiritual services, take it slow (there’s that word again!). When he goes back to his regular routine, I won’t have those mornings anymore. Is this a sign that I should wake up early and make that time for me? I feel so conflicted with that idea because, as I mentioned yesterday, I need that sleep. Yet so many slow living individuals state that you should wake up to your kids, not by your kids; meaning, your kids should not be your alarm – you need to set that alarm and set your day with intentionally dedicating thirty minutes or an hour to yourself. Not work, not chores, not taking care of the household: to yourself. I don’t think I have the capacity to manage that, at this moment. I suppose I won’t know until I try but I don’t feel called to try, either.

Naptime will be when I have to get everything in, in one sitting. This will be a challenge. Firstly, my services must be done in the morning when I am energetically most in-tune and Aligned and aware. Second, I have now seen and felt how transformative prioritizing my daily writing has been for me and I know that cannot be sacrificed. It has transformed me, has helped me navigate my identity, and has made me a better mother and wife (I have less breakdowns and feel less overwhelmed – I get anxious just thinking I might miss a chance to write, honestly). Third, by the time I’ve completed my second round of writing during his nap currently, I only have time to quickly whip up his food (and hopefully whip up a little for me). If the new routine is – write (it must always be first) – services – will I have time to make him his lunch? Will I feel anxious during my service, shifting my connection? What happens if the nap is short and doesn’t make beyond me being able to prepare lunch?

While I recognize the importance of living each moment to the next and not stressing about things that are out of your control (like my husband returning to routine), the prioritizing of my schedule is in my control and that’s where the stress lies. Perhaps now is the time to read the book Essentialism to help me navigate these changes. And maybe I should take a moment to deeply consider waking up a little earlier, even if it’s just staying in bed and writing in bed. When I wrote that, I heard: yup. Maybe it’s been decided for me (but we humans have free will, after all…).

Today, my husband is going to get a haircut in the afternoon. Since afternoons are usually our “adventure time” (it’s a way to break up how long the afternoon feels even though it’s no more long than the morning) with R, so I’ll have to do a little adventure on our own. I haven’t decided if I’ll brave the thrift shop (my not-favourite one) with a walking (/running) toddler (because it has stairs and I can’t take my stroller), or if we will take a walk in a local park. Maybe we can try both. I don’t need anything from the thrift shop and I was just there eleven days ago, so there are likely not many new additions to the treasures I will find, but it’s always fun to explore a thrift shop. I don’t know why. It’s always been a joy of mine in Canada, as well. I don’t think I’m alone, here. Old souls, in particular, seem to love the adventure of a charity shop.

Anyway, let’s see where this energy shift takes the day. I’m still waiting on more birthday books to arrive and I have a feeling I’ll find some in my mailbox, today. Since finishing Wild+Free family, I still haven’t picked a “central book” as I like to call it – the book I read the most and go to, the most in my endless pile of literature. Maybe it’s time to test the waters of Essentialism and see if it fits the bill. Let me get it off the shelf and give it a shot.

Wishing you the most beautiful day, Awakened Mamas.

xx C